Sid's Blog

~*Best Friends*~

 

There seems to be a new place in my home,
I couldn't see you struggle while I had grown,
And the places that I visit,
whisper of the things we did,
and the inspiration,laughs and antics came by the wind,
now im all grown and old and don't rely on my hate,
the whispers of yesterday,
almost tore down my fate....

And it seemed like its never going to stop,
But you kept faith and didn't let me rot,
and you got me up through my hard days,
now you're gone and have left me standing by your grave...

There seems to be a new place in my mind,
I couldn't see you suffer,
No I couldn't be blind,
You threw away your joy to see people grow,
you took the dark and turned it to the light that I now know,
now im all grown and old and don't rely on my hate,
the whispers of yesterday,
almost tore down my fate....

And it seemed like its never going to stop,
But you kept faith and didn't let me rot,
and you gave everything to make me feel alright,
but you didn't have to throw away your own life..

now I wallow in the thoughts of how we both grew,
we played with little guns and toys killing everyone we knew,
Now im all bare,alone and shadowed by my fate,
the winds just whisper of how two best friends played...

~*Once Again*~

Weather & Feelings

~*Once Again*~

Every time I look around,
I keep searching in people,
the way you sound,
the way you make me feel is so,
far from what I've found....

Every time I reason out,
is love a truth that I have never found,
I'm just left with myself to answer,
and I never know,
if I was right or wrong.....

Although I am far away,
doesn't mean the distance is in the way,
cause I hope that you can see through it,
just like my feelings found their way

I have nothing else to say to you,
No one left to listen to,
I know how it feels to be like you,
and I feel helpless and sorry for you

Sometimes,Somethings just never change,
I realized that life is strange,
I know that I can change everything,
just to stay the same.......

I feel absorbed in this pain,
like a piece of paper in the rain,
I'll live with the hope that,
You'll find your happiness once again.

~*For You*~

 

Falling

 

~*For You*~

I don’t know what to say,

You feel so far away,

You feel so insipid and lost in thoughts….

 

You don’t tell me what you want,

You fear that your thoughts will haunt,

Haunt the reality that has enveloped you….

 

So tell me what to do,

Because I’m clueless just like you,

But I’m wondering what’ll make things all right for you,

Investing in your fears,

You lose yourself in tears,

But you forget that there are so many things that you can do.

 

I don’t know what to say,

Now you feel so far away,

Far away from the person that I once knew…..

 

So please don’t rest in this fear,

And tell me what you hold dear,

And I shall try to save it for you,

And I shall try to save it for you…..

 

We

 

 

 

 

Break free from all that you see....

~*We*~

 We've seen the days when the light,

Shone on our face so bright

with the warmth that brewed in the air

without any qualms or any despair

 

We've seen the darkness grow all night,

We waited long for its contrite,

As we close our eyes and sleep

We only had our love to keep

 

As it all fades away

fades into shades of grey,

and releases all we've known,

As we notice the wounds we have,

The scars still hurt so bad,

I realise all that we've been through,

is something new......

 

We've tried to make ourselves to see

Beyond people's apathy,

We've tried to save all that we have today

So that we can see tomorrow and say

that we're onto something new,

Something very happy and yet true...

 

We know nothing of our days

cause our memories are all hazed

what if all these things were never true

and when I ask you

a question with all that you hold true!

Would I still have "you"? 

Would I still have "you"?....

Paper Boats....

~*Paper Boats*~

Reflection of a soul,floats till it reaches its goal.

You fill me up
to the brim
you make me swim...
in the sorrow within
as I stay afloat
I make a paper boat
and try to hang on to it hoping it'll float

But now,its all,soaked in the rain
I feel,my pride,swallowing the pain
And you sat beside me laughing at my disdain
now I'm washed up and am drowning in this rain.

As a stream just carries my paper boat
within it lies my soul afloat
As i row and paddle towards my fate
all the paths in our life just aren't straight.

Understand the meaning that things whisper and say
sometimes we can't go the easy way
and so you fill me up to the brim
your smile is tarnished and tainted within
as I wait for my paper boat to stop
So I can get off it
and pursue what I thought
pursue what I though........

~*ME*~

Hazed Tree

~*Me*~
I try to find some peace within my mind
But its not what I just find
So I sit still and I stare
Hoping I'll find it somewhere in there.....

I try to know what i really want to find
in my paradoxical mind
I'm lost somewhere within
somehow my patience swears me thin....

A thought can be pernicious only when
you dwell inside yourself
Lost with Loneliness.....

There has got to be a way to find
out of one's own mind
I'm lost somewhere within
Someone please come and help me WIN

A memory of true love is like a favorite song
No matter how many times it plays
you never let go of it to Fray!

Signs of life evades me thrice
you don't know me even today
but still I wait inside
still in my Hide
I wait for you to fly
and put an end to my decay
Come and save me for once and let it be today.

This is "me"
I hope that you can see
all the thoughts that I left free
I'm still waiting to find myself
somewhere lost in me
But till then I guess I'll just sit here
and just stare
Lost in my own decay.......

Afterthoughts....

Epiphany

~*Epiphany*~
I'm just Directionless,motionless
showing Willingness to fall down today
Its meaningless,senselessness
to say something inimical and pray...

I hold the sun in my palms to rest
the rays just daze out from its crest
butterflies just fly out through the grass
I realize that this pain won't last,

I'm just functionless,blatantly cautionless
when I see myself prey to disarray
the words just find me deep in thought
If I'm chained to destiny I'm destined to rot
The path's just beaming that's what I've been taught
and so I fade....

Its no more a nightmare
I've awakened from despair and freed my will
Whatever I swear,even if today is not there
I shall not get scared.....

Its hard to swallow the words I've said
its like being misread
like the shape of a moon
the light that its strewn all around me how much I have bled...

~*The Hollow*~

Before something hollow creeps kill it in your minds deeps

~*The Hollow*~

I open the doors
to my mind
and let everything seep out through time,
The thoughts once confined
in my head
used to make me feel so alive yet dead...

And now I just let go
of everything I know,
And now I just let go
of the thoughts that were shallow and hollow,
The reason fades out slow
dimensioning the glow,
And now I just let go
I think I'm broken
I think I'm hollow

I walk through these prison walls
And a thought conceives me to fall,
our heads are all made hollow
within it the thoughts brewing shallow

And now I just let go
of everything that I know,
And now I just let go
of the thoughts that were shallow and hollow,
The reason fades out slow
dimensioning the glow,
And now I just let go
I think I'm broken
I think I'm hollow.

The memories of you back then
don't match the person your now
the changes now withheld
burn me from the inside
the pains of which I never fail to swallow!

And now I just let go
of everything I know of you
the facade that you throw
just to make me change into something new,
The reason fades out slow
consuming me as I know
The changes ever since then
is the reason for the way I fell....

One Perfect Someone

Its All In There.....

~*One Perfect Someone*~

I always think about someone
Their Probably watching over me
There is nothing more than love
That is lethal enough to kill me!

I've been waiting for so long
But that someone never seems to come
I don't know if I'll show some love
when I'm losing all of me.....

(Get Away!!!!!)

Why do I keep getting these thoughts
Why do they keep watching over me
When I start seeing someone now
they move away rapidly

All my dreams are true
Its just that I can't show them to you
All my life's at stake
I need that "someone" to give me a break

The Earnest love that I asked
I Never got it in my past
the sadness breeds within
Life is nearing the brim

(Get Away!!!!!)

Why do I keep getting these thoughts
Why do they keep watching over me
When I start seeing someone now
they move away rapidly

Why do I need that soul?
Its probably watching over me
Why do I think so much?
I'm Drowning In my memory......

(Get Away!!!!!)

I know that your there
hearing me,reading this
I'll grow up for now,
But never forget
What I miss....

The Little Warmth In Me..

~*The Little Warmth In Me*~

 

Look Beyond,Something's there,the sun sets And I'm not scared.....

 

I think about the days

in the past that says

try not to repeat all your flaws!

Life's like a child's face

You smile at it and it smiles back every single trace

 of what's left.......

 

Learn to smile & pray

learn to make something of today

and one day you'll say I'm done

Its been far too long

since I've sung my heart's song

Its been difficult to find myself

And here I am.....

 

Memories betwixt

I rise up to fix

all thats left of me

the ashes of days

that I spent away

in burning my misery

A thought of regret of when I fret is something that I heed

Within a moments time

 every thing turns me into

 someone thats not me......

 

I keep thinking of the days

and select seperate ways

I keep sorting out my life and know that I'm much too strong

its at times like this

that I always miss

that little warmth in me!

 

The Little warmth in me

The Little warmth in me

The Little warmth in me

Is an epitome of my misery.........